I still freakn need more sleep.. why why why?

aah yeah feeling a bit under the weather.. why do we say things like that.. (under the weather)? ok the weather is what I am under, its been rain blended with snow.. wet, damp, cold.. but no more than I can handle, I suppose.

How do I line up a few things in my thought system?

Ok for one, this pisses the most ordinary people off when I say some of the following things:

9-11 is a joke, as in the song.. a magic trick.. right; not that it was really a joke, but rather serious, but like a self afflicted wound. I wouldn't call it a wake up call, there are enough things about to be considered wake up calls... just step outside.. people may not be the foul people that the television shows.. but the concentration of disenfranchised people is growing; heck I'm one of them!

I don't believe the myth of over population; if so why all the problem with western infertility? Oh if people in agricultural growth areas are so overwhelmingly swimming up to their ears in people.. then doesn't that help reassure there will be families to work the land in the proper sustainable methods? My neighbour from Jamaica came from a family of 14 children.. and it worked because all of them worked the land they had... they also protected what they had. I am suspect to think that governments do not want large families for this reason alone... so they send out the young healthy men (and women) off to war.. and then no population problem.. right? And then so called feminists promoting the economic boom of China (but not the draw back of China as a huge human rights violator, who kidnaps women in the middle of the night and forces abortions on them!!! is that very female friendly? fuck no!!) But for lowering population, and economic gain, there is this urge to take the population there is and make them work for minimal money.. and destruct their local environment for the sake of maintaining this economic boom sustained by a smaller number of people.. because when you have cheap electricity, you don't need actual people running things.. and then they will do away with people all together eventually.

In many other regions in the world there is actually a decline in birth rate..personally fertility issues should only be considered when people are not willing to take care of the children they produce.. there is also a sort of new fascist idea with that control of the embryo itself.. the choice of gender, making all of us god-like.. and then the choice of bringing to term a child which may be considered "defective"..then again there are rich people who reproduce (such in the case of the McCanns) via test tube.. bringing joy into the lives of people who would not normally have children...see the irony there? And then in the issue of adoption, when the mother could be fit but is bound by the social contract of being less than perfect for being unwed and would normally consider keeping a child....

Then there is for those people who would adopt, within a very racist system.. they demand the children be WHITE... (unless you are now Maddona or the other trendies who should be adopting whole villages instead of just one small child...) (in fact because of the growing problems of the epidemic of aids in various places where biological warfare has taken place due to civil war and rape.. whole entire villages are completely destroyed and vultures are sucking up money to reach these places... as well as the corruption of how things function within a system like this.. why don't the freaking celebrity bitches get over there and just buy the whole country and prevent another child from becoming an orphan.)

And then global warming.. sorry... this is a human problem.. even if there is contribution by the changes in the sun.. I have to say taking care of and respecting the environment is an issue even if there is no earth tomorrow due to a comet landing directly in the middle of TEXAS...when most of the pollution which makes local places unlivable is due to the fact that people are not using sustainable technology and there are a billion untested chemicals in the air, water, earth, you name it.. and we are killing off thousands of species a year... its in our human hands.. but this is not an Al Gore elitist prize winning thing..

Why do environmental communities directly leave out the ecological pressure of raising animals for meat?

Why do they never talk seriously about the land's ability to produce food for humanity and putting an end to world hunger?

Someone told me that even today, world hunger could end.. because its not because there is not enough food to go around.. its because there are not enough people doing anything about the distribution systems... and because of corruption, lies, greed and all the human qualities we seem to have so much of these days.. but honestly.. do we?

Humanity the direction of people in general: well many people who have power do believe they get there because they don't waste their energy or money..but the epidemic of people who care being marginalized is a part of this sad story.. so if you care, if you are a human who can connect easily with other people on an emotional level and can empathise, congratulations.. but we put conditions on our emotional energies.

The so called Normal people limit their feelings to a small group of people they themselves pick.. other than their families and families do allot of justifying of feelings.. both wrong and right. This is world wide.. something has happened to create our generation, in the west.. the lack of commitment towards personal relationships, our children, our neighbours, even our extended families and yet putting on seasonal shows of affection are part of this facade. I believe the majority of people are controlled this way by the steady pre prescribed heartbeat of the seasonal tides.. shopping season... tv schedule, work schedule... and anything which doesn't fit within those parameters.. it falls wayside.

And when we lack energy.. there is coffee.. and when we still lack energy... there is some kind of pill.. all to sustain our daily task without outward rebellion after all, we have to work..

I think that the way the work system is run, and this is throughout the entire world.. with the majority of us working 40 hours a week.. is just to sustain the time which our personal time is bought and sold.. and upon these designated time schedules we drain ourselves but also contribute to the draining of resources.

There must be some kind of greater force out there which really wants us to be dependent upon this kind of system... where your time is not your own, where you are forced to use some kind of machine or use resources you wouldn't usually use during your time when you are at home.. but the collapse of economy is not my goal but the global system the way things are set up now, if we didn't need all this stuff, we wouldn't make all this stuff.. and if we didn't have machines, we would be buying our stuff directly from people who are making it.. with their hands, or we would make it ourselves.. within this kind of system we would be smarter, just based upon the thought involved with understanding where things come from, something we completely neglect when everything comes from the shop, and cheaply and then tossed out again when we don't need it.

Being a part of the second hand economy for the majority of my life makes me believe that maybe it is better to invest in good which are long lasting, durable and look good... rather than first hand cheap crap. And this applies to homes as well.

My hypothesis is if someone could cure all the problems of the UK, the garbage problems with the landfills, recycling problems, housing economy problems associated with the housing boom over there right now.. and the transportation problems as well as racial relation and educational problems.. all of it in a sustainable way.. this would translate to all the problems in the rest of the world..just take the city of London at this point in time; cure it of all its problems without a police state, and import this problem solving.. and you have the cure for the rest of the world.

Now someone get to work on a simcity London with all the faults and flaws of the system the way it is, and get the youth to work on it... for free.